幸運兒

不知不覺, 原來我只剩下四個晚上能夠在自己的床上睡覺. 今天下午午睡的時候, 想象如果自己已經在寧波, 躺在 dorm 裏面, 那種感覺會是怎麽呢? 結果就是覺得很不安, and a feeling of frustration knowing that everyone and everything i know will be on another continent and that even though you know where they are, there is no way for you to get to them. (會不會很誇張). Perhaps it's not that bad. I talked to my Chinese history TA from last year (who is a Caucasian female and went to China for exchange too). The advice she gave me was not to worry, relax and enjoy life. I hope I can do that. 始終是自己第一次自己一個, 不是幾天的時間, 而是幾個月的時間, 一定會有一點不安. 其實, 我早已經説服了自己要把這個 exchange 看待為一個悠長的假期. In the end, it was my own decision to go in the first place. 就當作是一個開給自己的挑戰吧. 我深信, everything happens for a reason. 都是時候 jump out of my comfort zone, 好好感受一些新的事物, 經歷一些新的事情, 更加認識自己.

因爲 exchange 以後的安排還未落定, 所以我已經把今天看作爲 Gourmet 工作的最後一天. 還記得小時候我跟媽媽說我一定不會再餐館打工, 因爲我一定不能忍受看著別人而自己不可以吃的感覺. But in the end, I must say that Gourmet was the best job that I ever had. 如果今天真的是最後一天, 我真的感到依依不捨. 很幸運能夠認識到一班非常可愛的同事們, 遇到一位那麽好的 manager/boss. 在 Gourmet 的回憶, 都是開心的. 我會非常想念芳姐的"待客之大道理", Jack 哥的笑聲, Stewart一流的茄牛麵, 呀能奇怪的廣東話, 叔記的 "北極熊 look", Kwan's great treatment to all employees, Aileen's caffeine addiction (hahaha), Elaine's 3-inch sneakers, Lawrence's insistence on hitting the bell even when I'm standing right there, etc.

謝謝鄭少今天為我炮製了牛扒午餐．辛苦你了！現在有四個多月的時間讓你好好把值70%的牛扒變成100%! And always staying up to wait for me to finish typing up my blog so that you can be the first to read them.

謝謝 Connie, Cheryl, Timothy, Bruce, Ruth, Ben, Ness, Wing Kit 今天為我弄了一個 surprise farewell semi-dinner. I was very touched by all of your presence...有住在 Burnaby　的, 又有生病，有趕著去 clubbing 的　(haha), 又有由不用上班變成了上班的．Thank you! I guarantee you all 手信．　哈哈哈．．．．

Thanks to Aileen for the BEAUTIFUL cake and treating my last day as a "special occasion". yum yum!

Special thanks to Cheryl for planning it all and the ice cream. 謝謝你對我的 care and love. Thanks for the prayer during Joshua. 你讓我覺得自己的離開不是沒人覺得不捨的．　你讓我知道我無論往哪裏去，做什麽的事，都是有人在為我禱告，支持我．　謝謝你的愛．(that's why you get not one, but TWO pictures on my blog today) haha

謝謝你們讓我不能不承認自己是一個幸運兒．

Currently listening： 魚　－陳綺貞 (from her MUCH AWAITED new album, 太陽).
陳綺貞, 你的音樂 speaks to me in ways that others can't.