The (nonexistent) Passion of the Kathy

If there is one thing that I really want right now, it would be passion. Not romantic passion, but a passion for something so that it becomes the goal, purpose, and/or definition of your life. For example, some (great) people have a passion for finding the cure to cancer and other (still great) people have a passion to be a wonderful wife/mother, so that day in day out they focus on this goal and everything they do is oriented to this goal. Their plans revolve around the goal, they know exactly what they need to achieve in order to reach their goal, and even though there might be set backs, the goal is still awfully clear and solid. And although at times there might be a need for detours, they will not be led astray by where their detours lead them, but will be able to firmly march towards their goal. Although at times there might be a need to reevaluate and re-plan the route to the goal. the goal itself never changes. From beginning till the end, the goal is precise, definite and never watered down to accommodate for weaknesses or failures.

But before this goal can materialize, passion is needed. Before you know what you want to achieve, you'll need to know what you want. The cancer-curer wants to cure cancer, hence he will be diligent in his study of biology (or whatever you need to know to cure cancer). The mother-to-be wants to be a good mother, hence she will practice her patience and learn to cook/wash (or whatever mothers need to learn before they can become mothers).

The equation seems fairly simple: having passion for something leads to that thing's importance in your life, which leads to a plan to achieve that thing, which leads to a higher rate of success. We all know that people tend to do better in things that they actually like/enjoy/love/are passionate about.

Come on God, give me passion for something so that I can figure out what I'm suppose to be doing here.