Laziness, beef, pork and "voice-capability crises"...

i don't know what's wrong with me.

Lots of times in my everyday life, things would happen to me or I would see something or a thought would come up in my mind and I'll go "hey! I should record that down in my blog tonight" but when I go home I just forget about it or (worse yet) remember it but just be too lazy to type it out here. The result is that 1. I forget most of what happens to me and 2. This blog is stranded for weeks at times.

Anyways...

I've managed to gone one full week (minus Sunday) without pork or beef to celebrate Lent. Frankly, I am quite proud of myself because it is a very difficult feat for a foodie like me (esp. tonight when my mom made my all time favourite 鹹蛋豬肉) but I've managed thus far. I do get really hungry at night since some meals I just eat vegetables and rice but other than that, I've been okay. Just a bit more over a month to go...

Another thing that's been bugging me for the past week is my singing. As a general rule, I try to avoid listening any recordings of my own singing (unless I'm part of a choir in which case I won't be able to hear my own voice) because, honestly, I hate my singing and if i can avoid listening to it I won't suffer from an voice-capability crisis like I am right now. Really I am not even exaggerating or being cocky. On Sunday as I sat there and listened to my own voice I can barely kept a straight face because it was like torture. I simply cannot stand it and I felt sorry for everyone else in the room who has to endure 3 minutes of this (for lack of a better word) crap. And I am quite convinced that it was not the song (actually the song itself was great) because this is not the first time I've heard my sing and thought to myself "Wow 3 years of training and so much money for this bs?" (not that my teachers were, in any way, bs because they are awesome singers)

Which begs the question, are you actually good at something if you yourself don't think that you are?

And so the Nightmare Beings

After much delay, consideration and procrastination, I finally got my very first credit card. I think it took so long for me to get one because 1. too lazy to actually go to the bank, 2. don't see why i really need one and 3. don't trust myself enough to get one.

Hopefully I will be able to prove to myself that I am now responsible enough to have a powerful piece of plastic in my wallet.

Never was much too excited about the upcoming 2010 Olympics (I am a grouch who'd much rather see all that money go towards alleviating homelessness or lowering my sky-high tuition) but after seeing a list of all the free stuff that's going on in town for the next month, I must admit that I am tempted to cross the floor. I am a cheapass, yes, i will admit.

Perhaps until I attempt to take transit or navigate through Vancouver later on this month.

A Match For A Match

Today, I was reminded by a person that truly inspires me to be well-prepared for everything. As I wouldn't have gone into a taekwondo competition without stretching, or a piano exam without practicing scales, or a driving exam without making sure the mirrors and seat are well adjusted, or a singing performance without doing doing vocal warm up, or even going to school without my pencil bag or my notepad, why would I ever do anything else in my life, without preparing for it?

Had a really great relaxing day tonight just playing Monopoly with Karen, 鄭少 and MickMo. Although I only ended up with $4 and 250$ worth of debt, the laughing does my body a great deal of exercise that no amount of gym workout can match.

Life goin' nowhere, somebody help me, yeah

I was just about to start whining and complain on this blog post about life in general today but then suddenly, my iTunes shuffled itself to the Bee Gee's Stayin' Alive.

Now I know that even my iTunes is rooting for me。 Ah, what a relieve.

Stayin' Alive - Bee Gees

Well, you can tell by the way I use my walk,
I'm a woman's man, no time to talk.
Music loud and women warm.
I've been kicked around since I was born.
And now it's all right, it's O.K.
And you may look the other way.
We can try to understand
The New York Times' effect on man.

Whether you're a brother
Or whether you're a mother,
You're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Feel the city breakin'
And ev'rybody shakin'
And we're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.
Stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.

Well now, I get low and I get high
And if I can't get either I really try.
Got the wings of heaven on my shoes
I'm a dancin' man and I just can't lose.
You know it's all right, it's O.K.
I'll live to see another day.
We can try to understand
The New York Times' effect on man.

Whether you're a brother
Or whether you're a mother,
You're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Feel the city breakin'
And ev'rybody shakin'
And we're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.
Stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.

Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Stayin' alive

Well, you can tell by the way I use my walk,
I'm a woman's man, no time to talk.
Music loud and women warm.
I've been kicked around since I was born.
And now it's all right, it's O.K.
And you may look the other way.
We can try to understand
The New York Times' effect on man.

Whether you're a brother
Or whether you're a mother,
You're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Feel the city breakin'
And ev'rybody shakin'
And we're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.
Stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.

Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Stayin' alive
Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Stayin' alive

Dear God

So, when You want me to do something or go somewhere, You will use whatever possible way to grab my attention and make me know that that is what You want, right?

Okay God. I need a huge sign. Call me, text me, msn me, email me, facebook me, tell me. I will even visit Twitter more often so that You will have the option of tweeting me, okay? I need a sign so big that I will not be able to make an excuse or a reason to doubt it. And You know how good I am at making excuses so You really need to think of a good sign. And when You show me this sign, make sure I know for sure that it's for me and no one else. Make sure You make me understand that this is my road and that no one else can walk it for me. Oh, and make sure that You remind me that if I don't do Your will, no matter how difficult it might look, my own paths will always be more difficult.

And for my part, I will be extra attentive. I will pay attention to everything that happens around me and everything that the people around me say in case You're trying to reach me. I will pray extra hard and read my Bible more often. I will pay more attention in Sunday school, Joshua and worship. I will pay attention to the lyrics of the song that we sing at Church. I will even memorize Bible verses.

Okay, so we got a deal, eh? I know You want me to do Your will, so You really gotta tell me, aite?



And so my waiting begins.

Julie & Julia

This movie just gave me the most exciting/bizarre/impractical idea:

Maybe I should go into cooking school after I finish this May and do something I absolutely love - cooking and eating.

24

i watched the season premier of 24 with benny today. i didn't think it was that good haha...maybe because I fell asleep halfway. I always say Sundays are tiring.